the calm

this is the calm before the best storm ever.
chris is between germany and here and i cannot sleep.

i am excited for him to truly meet his daughter.  she is so much like him, his mannerisms, his facial expressions.  he will do so well with her.  he will calm my second-guessing of myself.  i really pledge to get out of the way sometimes and let him do it.  it will definitely be difficult, though, because it's been only me as her parent.

at diaper changes this week, i've been showing her the daddy pillow and saying dadadada.  she'll get the biggest grin on her face, pull the pillow into her head, and lick it.  that's the best form of affection she can show.  i was a little worried she wouldn't remember him since we haven't skyped, but i truly believe she will.

i worry that he will have some lingering effects.  that he'll feel inadequate, like he wasn't here to do enough.  he is the most caring husband, though, and i know it will translate into his parental role.

the sausage balls, no bakes, hashbrown casserole are all made. beer's in the fridge.  now back to killing time.  i hope this is the one and only time i'll be the portrait of a waiting wife.

2/18/11

i wrote this list on feb 18 - but apparently, time got away from me.  this is all she can do at 5 months:

2/18/11

She is beginning to bat at toys and can bring them to her mouth.

Laughing

Smiling

Tracking cats & birds

Rolls onto side both ways

Pulls feet up into happy baby (not holding feet yet)

Clasps hands together

Can hold toy, but not for long

Still swaddled for every sleep time

4 short naps + 0-1 nightly wakeup

sleep ~730 til 5ish til 8ish

tries to sit up in boppy and bath

ebf

persistent yeast rash since nov, so in disposables for now

loves standing, jumping

can sit up when I put her in the position

recognizes faces

smacks lips

cher tongue (on top lip)

puts hand on head

doesn’t reach for people yet

still afraid of loud noises

no teeth